You build up friendship and trust for months or even years;
but you could crush it just in seconds...

平衡·点

想再靠近一点 却怕你越走越远
所以到现在 也只能停留在这个平衡点
不近 亦不会 很远

这几天 发生很多不愉快的事情
也无意间发现了一些惊人的事情
真的只能感叹 人生就是这么无常

竟然开始觉得有些累~

雨天

今天 下了大半天的雨
但反常的是 我心情异常开心
为什么？ 因为……你

我承认 我好希望 能和你在一起
但是 我却不得不承认
那希望 是多么的不切实际

Important Moments 2008

Before I write a flashback of my 2008, I've sorted out some importants moments in my 2008.

1. Happiest Moments
- spending time with Miss A, no matter having lunch or dinner, listen to her singing, or just plainly chat online, moments spent with her, are unforgettable. I love talking to her, because she is smart and intelligent, and she's pretty.

- trip to Redang with my coursemate after we finished our 3 years studies. Friends get closer after this trip. And I finally dare to go snorkelling, of course with life jacket, because I can't swim. Yet, it's a very good experience, and had been one of my happiest moments in 2008.

2. Sweetest Moments
- wake up 1 and a half hour earlier everyday, take bus to the wet market not far away, sometimes walk there, to buy flower for Miss R. The florist is closed on Mondays and sometimes Tuesdays. So, to ensure I got the flowers everyday, I purposely wake up that early on Sunday, go to the florist, buy 2 flowers for the coming Monday n Tuesday. Yet, I doesn't feel any tire, because, I wanted to cheer her up, and to tell her, she's special.

- buying herbs for sicked Miss A, who still need to practise singing and rehearsal for a whole day.

- getting SMS of encouragement from Miss A when doing OT. It's like an energy boost to me, keeping me to continue my work.

- watching Jay concert with Miss C. Nothing much to say, but watching the perfomance of my favourite artist with someone special, isn't it a sweet memory?

3. Scariest/Most Frightening Moments
- go-kart crash at the speed of around 80km/h (or maybe 100km/h). My kart hit the tyre barrier, then thrown half hung in the air, bounce back, and hit the tyre barrier again. I don't really know what happened. But my jeans was torn, my helmet is broken. But, luckily, I just had minor injuries. Really lucky I am, because I might be dead already in such accident, really...

- escaping from a car burnt incident. I was travelling back to office from Putrajaya after handling some censorship matters. The car broke down near my house. Smokes coming out from the bonnet. We thought it's just radiator problem. But then the car starts burning. Lucky enough, the car door was not locked. My colleague and me were able to get out from the car quickly, and no one got injured. The car was total lost anyway. Again, I'm lucky enough, or else, I might be barbecued. Seriously...

4. The Most Heart-Breaking Moments
- knowing Miss C has found her Mr. Right, but still has to congrat and cherish their relationship. Then, holding the pain, helping her to choose the best birthday gift for him. It's heart breaking, really...

- Miss R told me to quickly find a gf to take care of me, on the day I escaped from the car burnt incident. Maybe it is just so normal, and I know she doesn't mean to hurt me, but it just frust me off. I ignored her for few days, and when we get to talk back, she told me she was taken, and this is heart breaking...

erm...this is what I can recall so far, so I will just end here and leave everything for my flashback post. These moments mentioned above, no matter it is happy, sweet, scary or heart breaking, they are meaningful, and had made me to grow (mentally) to become a better person, just like 1 of my favourite song, "Lord I'm doing, All I can, To be a better man..."

Au Revoir 2008, Bienvenue 2009.